Body Image: How God Sees Me….How I See Myself
By Marla Truitt
As I stepped on the scale at the chiropractor I closed my eyes. I did not want to see the number. The cute tiny, little receptionist weighing me says, “ahhh…its just a number.”
I smirked and looked at her muscular frame as she mentioned that she is a personal trainer. God bless her, and me, we were both created by God in HIS image!!
We made it back into the room and I waited for the doctor to come in for my exam. I just so happened to glance at the paperwork sitting on the table…..the number jumped out at me like a big WAVE! OH MY!! What has happened, how did I get to this large number?
God has a way of talking to me. He is so gentle, caring and loving. As I sat there waiting, I text my hubby and my sister. “What am I going to do? The scale just keeps moving up!”
I sat there pondering the high number: Lord, what is happening? Everything else is falling into place but that number continues to grow.
About that time the chiropractor enters the room. Such a friendly man… lovable and kind. This was my first time meeting him and I felt like I was exactly where I was suppose to be. I was able to share with him about my chronic condition, my life, family, and Life In Balance. I felt gratitude and gratefulness bubbling up inside of me as we sat and chatted. I shared with him that this condition started about 10 years ago when I was so lost and running scared.
Through the years I explained how God showed up to heal me Mind.Body.Spirit and I am so thankful for that! I have been able to find peace in the pain, thank God even when I’m hurting, and rest when my body needs it. As I shared and talked I could see the doctor’s wheels turning. I could tell that my pain –my chronic condition, mattered to him. He asked more about LIB and then he said, “Can I have your card? Because I would love to refer some women to you.”
So, this morning as I got ready for the day I looked in the mirror at my bare, naked body…..and I saw beauty!
Where did that come from?
And then God whispers to me….YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!
And then these thoughts flooded my mind:
I have decided that my body is God’s. I look in the mirror and I see beauty. I see a fighter, a woman who has birthed precious babies, a woman who has had chronic pain challenges for years, and I liked what I saw: Full breasts, and a soft stomach, curves and beauty. I’m gonna embrace where I am and just trust that God knows where I need to go and what I need to look like.
I, by no means, want any pats on the back or any praise about who I am! I want God to receive all glory, honor, and praise. Through the process of all the pain, I found who God truly is: He is my redeemer, my comforter, my savior, my friend, my love, my answer, MY EVERYTHING! He wants to be involved with ALL parts of my life… when I fall short, when I sin, when I eat too much, when I feel crappy, along with all the times I celebrate him.
Praise God, from whom ALL blessings flow!!
God’s response to me:
You are my precious daughter, you are more beautiful than a million red roses in the most beautiful garden. I love you, my dear sweet one. Your heart is pure and flowing with gratitude and thanksgiving. Your body is a sacred place for your husband and you are enjoying all the fruits of marriage and how I created it to look. You are not ashamed when naked in front of him or in front of the mirror, this honors Me, the one who created you. It blesses me to see you love yourself and love your husband the way you do. Your love for him, your family, and all the people around you radiates on your face. You find comfort in me, you find peace and rest in My presence. You are beautifully created by Me, the One who created the heavens and the earth….the One who created all things. I love you more than a million descriptive words, there is no limit to describe My love for you. Have no fear, I am with you every second of every day! I will guide you, protect you and comfort you….until you are in my arms my love!